Where to begin? Random thoughts, musings, stories, feelings. A chance to express what I am feeling in words as opposed to tears. A chance to put down "on paper" what has happened, what is happening and possibly what will happen. A chance to figure out, or at least think about who I am and who I will become.
This blog is about an ending and a beginning—all at the same time. Robert, my soul mate, lover, best friend, business partner, husband, did I mention best friend? teacher, and oh so much more died on September 26, 2013 after a two year battle with cancer. We thought we were winning. We were wrong.
I tend to think in weeks, seems safer in weeks— a bit more distance than to count days. That means its two weeks and a bit more. Facing week three. And its seems to be time to start writing.
We met in high school, on the school paper. He was an outgoing editor I was incoming and the last issue of the paper was put out by both editorial teams. We knew each other for 45 years. We've been married for 42.
Today I decided I wanted to put back up all the artwork, photos, prints, paintings that Robert had taken down over the last couple of years. I was thinking that I was making the house mine, reclaiming it. But as I was lying in the paddock with my horses grazing around me, I let my mind wander, and I realized I was putting the house back to where it was in happier times.
Before the cancer diagnosis and all its cascading effects. Before.
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